Tears for a Dream

Every morning I wake up I'm weeping
It seemed we were so very close
Just a thin veil of thoughts between us
Now I scarcely remember your ghost.

Am I to drown in illusion?
Is any of this making sense?
Did I just pass the last exit?
Is there a clue that I missed?

You have so many friends now
And I am so very alone
You'll never notice the speck of my life
Our future apart has been sewn.

I hope that you'll learn to hate me
I hope that I'll bare your scorn
I hope that you hope that I'll die soon
I hope that its me you ignore.

What has happened between us?
You, whose thoughts I adore
Have we already met?  Do I remember a dream
Of a future not yet in store?

Didn't you promise to love me?
Am I just going insane?
Or has my love of love doomed my life
And eaten a hole in my brain?

You, who're my light and my shadow
You, who's promise I'll keep
You, for which I have given my life
And who's visage haunts me in my sleep.

Is all of this an illusion?
Did I just dream you exist?
Life without you has no purpose --
A night where the sunrise is missed.

Every night that I wake up -- I'm dreaming
It seems you are so close at hand
Maybe next morning we'll wake up together
That I'd at least understand.

So I'm looking forward to dying
For perhaps I will see you then
When we've left this wretched world behind
Maybe then, I'll see you again.